My Sweet Baby,
It has been the greatest honor of my life to carry you inside of me.
For months now, your dad and I have talked to you, sang to you, tapped at you, laughed at your silly movements, and imagined what life will be like once you arrive. Your days inside of my belly are numbered, and while I’m a little bit sad about that, my excitement to meet you makes me feel like I’m going to burst! Well, that…and the fact that my belly feels like it might explode if it stretches any farther!
You gave us quite a scare a few months ago when it seemed like you were trying to make an extra early entrance into the world, but thankfully you stayed put. I’m sorry for all the tight squeezes you received so frequently from my uterus ever since then. Every little thing I did seemed to cause contractions. The doctors tell me my uterus is “irritable,” but you haven’t seemed to mind. I think the contractions have made you strong; they’ve made us strong. You’ll come into the world already knowing how to kick against the currents of life.
Sometimes it’s your crazy movements that have sent me into a flurry of contractions. When that happens, I always joke, “you did that one to yourself!” Your dad and I have a nickname for you; we call you “nutso butso” because you have kicked, punched, and wiggled around like a crazy basically since I could start feeling your movements super early at 17 weeks.
Oh, the movements. They don’t get old. You move, and I get reminded that there’s a human growing inside of me, which never stops being the coolest thing ever. I mean, it’s hard to forget you’re there, especially now that I look like I have a watermelon strapped to my torso, but your movements are a miracle every single time. The comforting feeling of knowing you’re safe inside, happy and wiggling, is what I’ll miss most about being pregnant with you.
Quite honestly, (I’ve talked about this a lot with our family and friends) I never thought we’d make it this far. My mom–your grandma–had the same contraction issue as me and never made it past 37 weeks), but here we are. You are just days from your due date, and I am so happy we made it here. You have given me so much over the last nine months. You’ve given me perspective–I’ve gotten really good at not sweating the small stuff. You’ve given me inspiration–I started a blog that has connected me with moms around the world. And you’ve given me patience–I’ve never wanted to meet anyone more than I want to meet you, but I also am so grateful to be pregnant and have learned not to wish time away. I hope to give you all of these things and so much more as you grow up.
In a few days, you’ll greet the world and start your life growing outside of me, but please know that no matter what you are not alone. I will always be there to hold you when you need to be held, listen to you when you need to be heard, and love you unconditionally, ALWAYS. And as you grow, I promise to grow with you. Let’s do this thing!
Thank you for choosing me to be your mom.